Dressember 31: That’s a Wrap

For the month of December – in honor of Dressember – I’ll be blogging everyday! Thoughts on anything from fighting for justice to feminism, from dresses I’m wearing to books I’m reading, and everything in between.


Welllllllll friends, here we are. It’s the last official day of 2015, the last official day of Dressember, the last day of so much! At the beginning of the year, I decided to do one of those read-the-Bible-in-a-year plans – a seemingly never ending goal. This morning I read the last chapter of Revelations, and it feels pretty surreal. Did I really just read the whole Bible? Do I really get to wear jeans tomorrow? Did this year really just come to a close?? Read More

Dressember 30: New Year, New You

For the month of December – in honor of Dressember – I’ll be blogging everyday! Thoughts on anything from fighting for justice to feminism, from dresses I’m wearing to books I’m reading, and everything in between.


As another year comes to a close, it’s all but impossible to reflect on everything the last 365 days held and what you hope to find in the next 365. Resolutions are started, new lists are made, goals are written – everyone wants change. Everyone wants to lose 10 pounds or start eating more vegetables, they want to stop drinking so much beer or start being more grateful. Every year, it seems like the same resolutions come out simply worded in different ways. I want to look better. I want to act better. I want my life to be better. 

I saw an article the other day about what someone wants to gain in 2016 – instead of focussing on resolutions that center on what to drop in the new year, they wanted to instead look at picking up some good habits. Last year I decided on 3 things I wanted to start and stop in the new year. There’s so many different ways to start the new year afresh, so many different outlooks on how to bring about change. Read More

Dressember 29: 3 Ways the Holidays are Better as a Grown Up

For the month of December – in honor of Dressember – I’ll be blogging everyday! Thoughts on anything from fighting for justice to feminism, from dresses I’m wearing to books I’m reading, and everything in between.


There are a few surefire ways to know you’re officially an adult. You wash, dry, fold, AND put your laundry away all in one day. You can afford to buy – and actually choose to buy – juice consistently (not just when you’re sick). The holiday season is more stressful than it is enjoyable.

When you’re younger, Christmas seems to take f o r e v e r to arrive – you even count down every day with advent calendars, and the hours still seem to crawl by. As you get older, Christmas seems to arrive out of nowhere. Literally. December 10th I was halfway done with my shopping, I blinked, and it was the 23rd. What?! As a child, Christmas is presents and excitement and a break from school and so many good things. This year – the first year it sunk in that I’m a “grown up” (according to my birth certificate) – it was a mix of good and bad. Catching up with old friends brought news of sickness, divorce, and hardships; baking with my mom was interrupted by checking emails and tracking packages; buying Christmas presents for everyone I love while on a tight budget was exhausting. Read More

Dressember 28: Wait for It

For the month of December – in honor of Dressember – I’ll be blogging everyday! Thoughts on anything from fighting for justice to feminism, from dresses I’m wearing to books I’m reading, and everything in between.


 

It’s raining in San Diego. Which – for people who don’t live here – is probably confusing. Don’t you have perfect weather every single day?? For people who do live here, we know it means one thing: horrible traffic.

My drive back down from LA got doubled today, as people were driving 20 mph on the freeway because a little water was falling from the sky. Do I sound bitter?? Maybe (definitely) I still am. Sitting on the freeway isn’t fun, ever. But especially when its cold and wet outside and you would do almost anything to just be home. Read More

Dressember 27: He is Faithful

For the month of December – in honor of Dressember – I’ll be blogging everyday! Thoughts on anything from fighting for justice to feminism, from dresses I’m wearing to books I’m reading, and everything in between.


There’s only a few days left in 2015, and I’m sitting here wondering where the year has gone. It seems like just yesterday I was celebrating Christmas in Malawi. It seems like only a few days ago I was getting off the plane in San Diego, excitedly welcomed home by so many faces I had missed. Was it really 10 whole months ago I started working for IGF? Eish.

As I realized next week is a new year – next. week! – I also realized I have no idea what 2016 holds for me. Sure, a few weddings I’ll be attending. A few big events I know about. But the the details, the in between? I have no idea. I realized I’m pretty much exactly where I was at this time last year: looking out on 2015 with excitement and hesitancy, exhilarated at the thought of all the freedom it held …and terrified at the thought of freedom it held.

But then I thought back on all that 2015 held for me. So much I didn’t see coming, so much I couldn’t have even imagined. Some good, some bad. But through it all, God was with me. Seasons I thought I would never survive came to a close, problems I thought could never be solved are gone, questions I thought would never be figured out are now answered. In everything, God surpassed my expectations. He never left my side, even on the days where I mistakenly thought He had.

He has been faithful in every promise. Today I realized (…or, re-realized) that He will continue to be faithful. Yesterday, today, and forever. This next year might be a mystery, there may be a lot to uncover in the months ahead and a lot of decisions to be made, but I don’t have to do that alone. I don’t have to doubt His goodness or His mercies, because He promises it’s unfailing and they are new every morning. I don’t know what 2016 will hold, but I know Who holds me.

Dressember 26: Taking a Break

For the month of December – in honor of Dressember – I’ll be blogging everyday! Thoughts on anything from fighting for justice to feminism, from dresses I’m wearing to books I’m reading, and everything in between.


Are there any other over achievers out there who find it near impossible to rest? To relax? To take a break? I’ve been working on this for some time now. That should tell you enough – I’ve had to work on my ability to relax. And when I do actually “relax”, I try to make the most of it. Am I reading a fun book? Did I light one of my special candles? Maybe I should change into yoga pants. Oh, this blanket isn’t as soft as that other one. Maybe I should get ice cream. On and on and on until I realize I’m overanalyzing things and not achieving my goal of relaxation whatsoever.

I hope I’m not alone in this. I hope I’m not the only one who stresses out when she leaves her phone in the other room (for the purpose of taking a break from my phone). I hope there are other people who check their work email even on vacation days. I can’t be the only one who strategically fits in as many fun things as possible into my days off… which then makes them insanely scheduled and way less fun. Read More

Dressember 24: I am Luke Skywalker

For the month of December – in honor of Dressember – I’ll be blogging everyday! Thoughts on anything from fighting for justice to feminism, from dresses I’m wearing to books I’m reading, and everything in between. 


In this season of advent, we focus a lot on waiting. What are we expecting, what are we looking forward to, what are we personally waiting on? As Christmas is tomorrow (!!!), it feels like the waiting is finally over.

As I’ve been reflecting on this season of advent in my own life, I’ve realized what I’m waiting for. Healing, in various areas of my life. Boldness, in certain relationships. Answers, to questions I’ve been asking. And as I’ve been re-watching the original Star Wars trilogy, I’ve realized something else: I am Luke Skywalker.  Read More

Dressember 23: Star Wows

For the month of December – in honor of Dressember – I’ll be blogging everyday! Thoughts on anything from fighting for justice to feminism, from dresses I’m wearing to books I’m reading, and everything in between. 


I’m not gonna lie, I thought all the craziness over the latest Star Wars movie was a little ridiculous. People camping out for weeks, the opening weekend being sold out insanely far ahead of time, the limited edition cereal and fruit snacks and who knows what. I have nothing against the Star Wars franchise, I just thought the world was freaking out a bit much over a movie.

I have yet to see The Force Awakens, my plan was to re-watch the original trilogy first so I’m up to date. And I was in no rush to watch said trilogy. The movie isn’t going anywhere, right? Redbox is cheaper than the theaters, right? Seemed like a win-win situation. Read More

Dressember 22: Things We Can Start Saying to Singles

For the month of December – in honor of Dressember – I’ll be blogging everyday! Thoughts on anything from fighting for justice to feminism, from dresses I’m wearing to books I’m reading, and everything in between. 


My “Things We Need to Stop Saying to Singles” was a hit with some folks, but I hate to be one to complain about problems without offering a solution. I get that at some points, as a married / engaged / off the market person, it can be hard to interact with someone who is single because it can be a very touchy subject for some. You don’t know how to address it… you don’t want to avoid it… it’s difficult! If you’re going to read anything, please read this: People who happen to be single are people – they have thoughts and opinions and dreams. You can’t imagine how many fail to remember that, and only see us for our relationship status. So for all those well intentioned people out there who really, truly don’t know what to say to singles this holiday season (or in general), here are some ideas:

After you’ve gone around the circle and heard all about marriages, engagements, ect and land on the token single friend in the group, who responds that she’s “still single”. Awkward silence.
If you’re relatively close friends, you can kindly ask “And how do you feel about that?” Give them freedom to love it, hate it, cry about it, or brush it off as unimportant. Deciding for them that “Ohhh, that sucks! So sorry to hear”, doesn’t allow them to celebrate singleness if they choose to do so. Alternatively, deciding for them that, “Oh, the days of freedom! You must have so much fun!!” doesn’t allow them to grieve singleness if they choose to do so. Trust me, they’ve had their feelings about singleness pre-decided for them a lot, so offering them a safe place to explain how they feel goes a long way.
If you aren’t super close with them (and don’t feel like they would open up about their true feelings), you can simply say, “Oh, okay. Any other life updates?” / “Any exciting plans for 2016?” / “What was your highlight of 2015?” This not only changes the subject away from relationships casually, but also doesn’t make a big deal out of their singleness. You really don’t need to comment on the fact that they aren’t seeing someone – acknowledging that they answered your question and moving on in the conversation is great. It’s how conversations typically work, actually. Bonus points: this tactic also suggests that you can have an exciting life and/or happy existence without a spouse. MIND BLOWING.

When you’re catching up with your old group from high school, and everyone has given long, extensive updates on their partners (they’re now working here, we’re now at this stage in our relationship, this bothers me about them but I love this, our future looks like _____) and your single friend has… no partner to discuss at length. Ahhhhhh.
“Have you picked up any new hobbies?” / “How do you spend your free time these days?”
“Whatever happened to [insert long ago dream]? Are you still thinking about pursuing that?”
“Any exciting plans for the new year??” (this is a reoccurring theme for a reason, friends. Great transition tool for this time of year!)
Sidenote: Unless you’re really close with them, and really, truly need an update on their ex, stay away from “Whatever happened to that one person…?” or “I had no idea you two split! When did that happen?!” Don’t be silly. Don’t go there.

When your single friend complains about going to some kind of holiday event that is basically couples only.
“Huh, that does sound hard. How can I help you with that?” Sometimes, people just want to vent. They want to be heard, they want their uncomfortableness to be acknowledged. Other times, they actually need someone to agree to hang with them for the night, to keep an eye on them throughout the evening, to speak up on their behalf. Don’t assume you know what they need, ask.
“Well, you can drive with us! We’re planning on leaving around ____” Half of the awkwardness of being single with so many events to attend this time of year is arriving alone. Seriously. Then there’s the awkwardness of carpooling with couple friends who either leave way too early or stay wayyyyy too long. Couples: offer the gift of carpooling. It’s wonderful – even for the environment. Also offer the gift of clear expectations of said carpool.
“It will be fun to catch up with so-and-so, we haven’t see them in forever!” Remind them that it isn’t just a party of couples being couples, but there are actually people there that you want to see. Sometimes it feels like it’s a never ending night of third wheeling – talking to couple after couple after couple. But couples are made of 2 people, and sometimes they actually break apart and talk to people one on one.
Sidenote: DO NOT go with the ever comforting (not) “Well maybe they’ll be some cute singles there” / “I heard so-and-so is back on the market” / “You can meet someone new!” Just don’t. Not helpful.

 

Miscellaneous, great things you can say to singles at anytime this season:
“So, tell me about the best part of your day / week / year!” Singles are real people and have real things going on in our lives besides our relationship status. We even like to talk about them. Really.
“Any exciting plans for 2016??” Seriously, guys. This is CONVERSATION GOLD. You’re welcome.
Normal conversation topics. I’m serious. Even though we aren’t married, we have opinions on politics, movies that just came out, and – if you’re really desperate – the weather.
“Here, have some more wine.” Am I saying this because singles are lonely, poor, miserable souls who have to turn to alcohol for their needs?? No. I just think most people in life could use more wine.

Dressember 21: Things We Need to Stop Saying to Singles

For the month of December – in honor of Dressember – I’ll be blogging everyday! Thoughts on anything from fighting for justice to feminism, from dresses I’m wearing to books I’m reading, and everything in between. 


It’s officially that time of year again. Nights are spent cuddled up together on the couch. Weekends involve dates to the ice skating rink. Stressing about what you’re going to get each other for Christmas / how to hide it from each other / when to even buy it because you do all your Christmas shopping together, obviously. Except, of course, if you’re single.

If you’re single, it’s officially that time of year again. The Instagrams of cute couples increase tenfold (yes, we see you in front of that Christmas tree, GET A NEW POSE). The Christmas cards start rolling in – showing off families on vacation or newlyweds at the alter. And you are forced to attend oh-so-many holiday gatherings filed with oh-so-many couples.

Okay, sarcasm aside, being single during the holidays isn’t the worst thing in the world. I really hate how we keep believing these lies about how we have to hate singleness during certain times of the year. Valentines Day? Oh, you poor thing. Wedding season?! God help you. THE HOLIDAYS?!?? Your life is over. I have lost track of the cheesy Christmas movies (which I love, no shame) that involve a plot line of the desperate single at Christmas, the lonely, unfulfilled person flying solo at New Years, the depressing, never ending walk in the snow some people have to make alone. Please, continue to tell me how a relationship will solve all my problems, Hallmark channel. Read More